Avoiding Complacency

I started this blog months ago with high hopes and great intentions. Looking at the date of my last post.....So, I've decided to try again!

I'm going through a period of reflection as I have 363 days sober today! My world is changing and morphing around me. I remember in the first months of sobriety I was focused and consumed with my recovery. Today I am still both focused and consumed, but with my family and my work. I am receiving daily the gifts promised, but with the gifts come new distractions. A little bird reminded me lately that without recovery, there are no gifts. I have been running around pleasing people, trying to make everyone happy and, basically, doing a lot of things, but doing none of them well. What I have remembered in this month of disillusion is that none of this is my job. What a great feeling! I have great faith in my Higher Power, but had quietly forgotten what that means in my life. What out means to me usually, and again today, is that the only one I need to be concerned with is ME!

Wisdom comes from unexpected situations and conversations...last night one of my 9 year old twins asked me not to go to my meeting because she wanted to spend time with me. As I listened to my words to her resembling "without meetings, without sobriety, without you," I realized that I am in need of some action... This is a program of action, is it not?! So, here I go!

All By Myself

So I'm sitting alone right now in a room full of people. I'm at an AA meeting in a grand ballroom during Spring Fling. In the part this would have terrified me. Even if I knew every person in the room I would have been alone. Let's be honest...I wouldn't have come. That was my first thought today...just don't go. Then my favorite support person told me to go. I think she wanted me out of the house, so I suited up with every intention of going shopping. That would be followed by a lie, which I don't do anymore. So here I sit...ready to listen, by myself, but never alone.......... Not now, not in sobriety.

A New Me

My first blog! Inspired by my new life, a fabulous woman and my need to journal...I've chosen a life of sobriety out of necessity. My new world is foreign. I am now accountable for my actions, my thoughts and my words. I am living and learning every day. What I know is that I have been blessed with amazing people in my life who are my friends, my teachers and examples of how to live each day...one at a time. My only job is to be open and willing to learn from their actions and words.