I started this blog months ago with high hopes and great intentions. Looking at the date of my last post.....So, I've decided to try again!
I'm going through a period of reflection as I have 363 days sober today! My world is changing and morphing around me. I remember in the first months of sobriety I was focused and consumed with my recovery. Today I am still both focused and consumed, but with my family and my work. I am receiving daily the gifts promised, but with the gifts come new distractions. A little bird reminded me lately that without recovery, there are no gifts. I have been running around pleasing people, trying to make everyone happy and, basically, doing a lot of things, but doing none of them well. What I have remembered in this month of disillusion is that none of this is my job. What a great feeling! I have great faith in my Higher Power, but had quietly forgotten what that means in my life. What out means to me usually, and again today, is that the only one I need to be concerned with is ME!
Wisdom comes from unexpected situations and conversations...last night one of my 9 year old twins asked me not to go to my meeting because she wanted to spend time with me. As I listened to my words to her resembling "without meetings, without sobriety, without you," I realized that I am in need of some action... This is a program of action, is it not?! So, here I go!
