As usual, the beginning of my blogging will start with.... wow, I haven't done this in a while! I have developed a world of peace, and rarely feel the need to vent. I have a sponsor, some friends in recovery, pray regularly, but rarely journal. Typically, I use facebook to gush about my hapiness, my wonderful children and how blessed I feel.
This week I have become saddened. My peaceful little world has taken an unfortunate turn. My Ex-husband, whom I usually get along with very well in managing the children, has decided that he and his girlfriend of 1 year are better equipped to care for and make decisions for my children. So, the peaceful, cooperative divorce is about to become ugly. I am being forced to fight for my rights as a mother and for the rights of my children. It's made me sick all week. I have been on the phone with my sponsor more this week than in the last year.... I haven't felt this uncomfortable since I became sober..... My fear, that they will try to persuade my girls that they are better for them, or that I am being mean to them by taking their dad back to court and renegotiating the 9 yr long agreement. My sponsors response to this.... "The only way you'll lose your girls is if you drink!!" And there you have it...I love her!!
So, my sweet, peaceful blog, that has no followers.... I will be using you to vent over the coming months to attempt to preserve my sanity. I need to journal, I need to go to more meetings, I need to trust God, I need to stay sober. I can walk through this!!!
Saturday, March 16, 2013
THE ONLY WAY YOU'LL LOSE YOUR GIRLS IS IF YOU DRINK
As usual, the beginning of my blogging will start with.... wow, I haven't done this in a while! I have developed a world of peace, and rarely feel the need to vent. I have a sponsor, some friends in recovery, pray regularly, but rarely journal. Typically, I use facebook to gush about my hapiness, my wonderful children and how blessed I feel.
This week I have become saddened. My peaceful little world has taken an unfortunate turn. My Ex-husband, whom I usually get along with very well in managing the children, has decided that he and his girlfriend of 1 year are better equipped to care for and make decisions for my children. So, the peaceful, cooperative divorce is about to become ugly. I am being forced to fight for my rights as a mother and for the rights of my children. It's made me sick all week. I have been on the phone with my sponsor more this week than in the last year.... I haven't felt this uncomfortable since I became sober..... My fear, that they will try to persuade my girls that they are better for them, or that I am being mean to them by taking their dad back to court and renegotiating the 9 yr long agreement. My sponsors response to this.... "The only way you'll lose your girls is if you drink!!" And there you have it...I love her!!
So, my sweet, peaceful blog, that has no followers.... I will be using you to vent over the coming months to attempt to preserve my sanity. I need to journal, I need to go to more meetings, I need to trust God, I need to stay sober. I can walk through this!!!
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